About 2 or 3 years ago, I was done with my university education and
national service, and was desperately searching for a job. I came by a couple
of men who offered to help me, but under the condition of sex. I refused them
all. I had a standing principle which did not include sleeping my
way into a job.
Some friends tried to convince me to accept the ‘offer’, but I
wanted a job genuinely, and not because I was the boss’s lady. Without any
more alternatives, I took to little ushering jobs which still did not come
easy.
It was on one of my ushering nights I made quite a terrible
mistake by asking for money from this guy called PK. I had met him through a
mutual friend and we’d only started chatting up. I was in desperate need of
cash, and he seemed to do well financially so I thought, why not ask him? When he
offered to give me the money I wanted, I got super excited.
I asked him to bring the money over to my place as I was not
comfortable going over to a guy’s house. He told me he was busy, and that I
should just pass by and pick up the cash. As desperate as I was, I bought into
the idea and used GHC 3 out of my last GHC 5 as transportation to his place.
Upon reaching his house, I sat with him for a couple of minutes.
He was in his boxers, and I was very uncomfortable. He told me to relax and
spend a little time with him. I feigned a smile. Then he asked me to kiss him.
Initially I said no, but he kept insisting. I figured he might not give me the
money if I kept refusing so I allowed him to kiss me. I could feel my stomach turn.
I then told him I had to go. He
agreed, and dipped his hand into his pocket and to my shock, pulled out GHC 4
saying it was all he had on him.
I sat there humiliated and regretful. With so much pain and sadness, I
refused the money and walked out of the house. He caught up with me by the
roadside, and told me he was expecting some money from a friend, who was yet to
arrive. I ignored him and kept walking.
Nothing could match up to the shame I felt. I blamed myself, and called
myself all sorts of names; a gold-digger, a whore, and that I never knew I
could stoop so low just for money. I used the last GHC 2 on me to haul my
sullen self back home.
Martha, Accra
Sorry Martha <3
ReplyDeleteNothing hurts than having to do something you don't want to do because of desperation.
DeleteWe hope Martha will forgive herself and move on from this.
Regards,
Sista